I spent a lot of time pondering these questions and then just stopped. I just accepted that I was me and it didn't matter why. I remembered recently my childhood ponderings when reading the Bible. I was reading the book of Ecclesiastes 1:2
"Meaningless! Meaningless!"says the Teacher. "Utterly meaningless!Everything is meaningless."
Everything is meaningless, Solomon wrote. Solomon wrote that the things, pleasures, and work of this world are meaningless. So does that mean that there aren't answers to my childhood questions? No, the things of this world are meaningless, only God grants us meaning in our lives. So the answers to my childhood questions are:
- "Why am I looking out of these eyes and not someone elses?"
Because these are the eyes God wanted me to have
- "Why am I me?"
Because God planned me before the world was created
- "Why can't I be somewhere else at the same time as I am here?"
Because this is exactly where I need to be
If everything is meaningless unless I have God in my life, why would I want to be anywhere else?
Dear Lord, please help me to get to know you better, to get to know how awesome, powerful, and limitless your love is. Help me to do the impossible and understand how much you love me enough that I will trust your will Lord!