Thursday, April 23, 2009

More of a prayer

After reading my daily devotion this morning I spoke the prayer from the devotion.
Dear Lord Jesus, may I do all I can to help people avoid the devil's tourist trap of hell. Make me Your witness. In Your Name. Amen.
After praying I thought this isn't enough! When I have opportunities to witness I:
  1. Don't see them
  2. Chicken out
  3. Decide to talk about something else
  4. Don't want to and decide not to
What i realized is, when I pray these kinds of prayers to do the lord's will I don't really want what I am praying for. This prayer is a prayer that I think the Lord wants to hear so I pray it.

Here is the Holy Spirit inspired prayer I followed up with:

Dear Lord, please do more than that, please help to kindle a desire in my heart to be a witness, help rewrite the filter of my mind to see witnessing opportunities. Help me to have greater understanding to what witnessing is help me to want it and to live it. Dear Lord I love you and confess that I am sinful and want for this world, not you. Please lord fill me with a fire to do your will, help me to live in prayer and stay focused on your word, your will, what you want! Help me to want what you want, be who you want, and stay that way! Thank you for filling me with your spirit Lord. In Jesus’ name. Amen!

1 comment:

Turiya said...

This is beautiful. It is like a dance. A divine romance. I know you'll never give up. All we can do is our best, the rest is up to God.

Your honesty is admirable and very inspiring.

I don't believe that you want the world more than God, not really. But I know how confusing this all can be. Sometimes I think I'm just fooling myself, and other times I feel so close to Him.

It's a real pleasure for me to read your words. I think I know at least partly how you feel.

One day we will be in another place, or state of awareness, and we'll have a good laugh together about the winding road we have traveled to get there.